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“Here’s the thing, nobody can tell you the timeline of your healing. They cannot dictate what it looks or feels like. What it consists of: the contradicting delicate simplicity & the ravenous complexity. Know this; no matter what was taken from you, there is nothing they can do to rob you of this, too. So light it up, burn it down, tear it all up & leave the disastrous wreckage in the wake behind you. & walk on. Bravely, boldly, intently, despite of and maybe in spite of it all. Toward the fields of wildflowers, into the light of the beaming moon, dancing in the midst of the magic of healing.” MRB
"& one day the scared little girl woke up as the bold & brave woman you see now." -despite it all, MRB “If people understood trauma & trauma response; maybe they wouldn’t be so frustrated, annoyed & willing to walk away. We are doing work we don’t speak about, feel twice than what we share, & judge ourselves harsher than anyone ever could. Our heads & hearts, but oh our souls, are broken. Understand we are trying to heal simultaneously with accepting the trauma & dealing with its aftermath. I think that makes us brave. Maybe even the most brave of all.” -but it’s not our job to educate you, please don’t walk away. MRB "I overcome. No matter what, no matter how long. I am both the fire breathing dragon & the fearless princess that saves herself. I am the resiliently stubborn warrior that lets nobody get in her way. I am the wolf that comes back ferociously leading the pack. I am the fire & the storm simultaneously. I am waking up, thawing. I am no longer empty, so get ready. And I will not go down without a fight. In fact, I will not go down at all. & when I falter, I'll remember all the times I've dusted myself off and gotten back up again; that's what I do." -MRB “No matter what, I used to see a path. Even if it was barely visible due to all the obstacles; trees & branches, trenches, and rocks and cliffs, fog that bogged your vision for miles. But I do not see a path at all anymore, and I’ve come to realize that for over a chunk of time now I haven’t seen one exist. Maybe that’s why I’ve been floating around, trying to grasp onto something tangible even if it’s painful.” -the unforeseen path, MRB “Sometimes we have to cut off the infected limb to save the rest of the body.” -Dead weight, MRB “Today i woke up, & the heaviness in my soul is a little bit lighter. Don’t underestimate the nights that seem frivolous. The nights with wine and good friends and Chinese food. Where you bare your soul & laugh and joke and cry. Those moments. In those moments, without even realizing it; we heal.” -friendships save our souls, MRB "Speak with intent. Speak truthfully. Speak deliberately, directly, distinctively. Speak with meaning behind each word. Speak with purpose. Or do not speak at all." -MRB “Have you ever felt something so deeply it became embedded into your bones? A simultaneous curse & blessing to feel in such a way. But let it be known, there is nothing worse than to feel nothing at all.” MRB I have the ability to feel. No, to really feel things. It seems superhuman at times, to be able to feel differently and deeper than almost the entire world around me. But right now though, right now I feel nothing at all. -they’ve won this round MRB “It’s her time to share her gifts with the world, & we will watch in awe as she shines.” -Morgan Rae Brown "We must learn to appreciate ourselves enough on our own so much that when others fail to do so it will make no difference in our being." -MRB “When your world comes crashing down more than once in a short time we start to wonder why. When there is so much turmoil and hardship we begin to blame ourselves. How can we not?” -We Are Not Responsible for Their Self-Will, MRB “I've had enough good-byes with people that are and were good for me, and too many toxic people kept inside my circle. So instead, I'll say hello sometime in the future; when I am ready. Ready to show you what I've become, what I've achieved and how I achieved it. When I am more of me than you've yet to see. I will come back and wave hello and greet you with the most genuine smile you'll have seen on my face. I'll have more heartache to share I'm sure, but that's okay. I'll have fought more battles but I'll have won. I'll tell you about them differently than we've ever spoken. Life will be good, I know it.” -it’s been a day, MRB “With blood dripping down the sides of her face, her mouth finally opened. At first she struggled to spit out the words from biting her tongue so long. What they forgot is that the tongue is one of the fastest healing parts of the body. It healed with every word she spoke out loud & she gained momentum. Through her battered & bloodied mouth she smiled. Why? Because she knew that now the rest of her body would follow suit & heal in its own time. Wiping her face clean she took a step onward, never to be silenced again.” -Tongues heal & so will our souls, MRB “ I woke up one day and for the first time the haze that has been over me for months seemed a little easier to navigate through.” MRB "oh, how the mighty have fallen..... but oh, how they rise." "I think you can love yourself and be sad at the same time." -MRB "I claw my way through each and every second of every day. And with bloodied & broken fingertips, I am surviving." -MRB |
"You did not steal the light from within me. In fact, it's beaming more than ever. Hope is a powerful thing; it's magic in real life form. You do not get to stifle my magic."
“One day you will have true friends. Do not push them away when instinct screams at you to. One day you will have friends that automatically say “we” when talking about a situation instead of you or I. You will not be used to it, but to them you are not a burden. To have a friend that doesn’t hesitate on being there, that just asks when and where, that’s gold. Do something different, & let them.” -You don’t have to do it alone anymore, MRB “It’s her time to share her gifts with the world, & we will watch in awe as she shines.” -Morgan Rae Brown “You lie there in anguish pondering why you cannot sleep. It’s the trauma, they say. They. Maybe they are actually are right for once. Tell me, how does a human so unspeakably haunted by these monsters learn to rest?” -you don’t, MRB "To love is the greatest thing of all. But to love you was far greater. The problem being that there just wasn't enough love for the both of us. Your love sucked the life out of me, & now I must go." MRB “The magnitude of loss is far greater than anything else I’ve felt in my life.” -not all of them are ghosts, MRB “In a world of “because I said so’s”, “that’s just the way it is”, & no explanations at all, we lose the wonderers, the ones with that innate yearning for knowledge, the curious souls. The ones that survive & latch onto reason wither up & blow away, a somber whisper in the wind. -with explanation they could’ve been a roaring windstorm, “They tell me to hold in certain emotion, don’t share it, hide it away. Their faces turn sour, eyes saddened or disgusted by various pieces. But what they don’t realize is that telling me to contain myself even in the slightest is a death sentence. With each exhale taken, a piece of me is brought to life. I am a soul of all feelings, only brought to the surface with each breath I take.” Morgan Rae Brown “& she should’ve known she’d never get the chance to dance around freely wearing that beautiful white dress of justice.” MRB “Speak of the magic of justice and of when good conquers evil & I’ll share our greatest fairytales of the imagination. Let’s see if we can decipher between them.” -you can’t; they don’t exist, MRB “They tell me to hold in certain emotion, don’t share it, hide it away. Their faces turn sour, eyes saddened or disgusted by various pieces. But what they don’t realize is that telling me to contain myself even in the slightest is a death sentence. With each exhale taken, a piece of me is brought to life. I am a soul of all feelings, only brought to the surface with each breath I take.” -MRB “And instead of accepting even the idea of defeat any longer, she got up & decided to put on her injustices like armor and went on steadfast into the war.” -justice will prevail, MRB “Through you, I learn more about me. Being with you doesn't take away from me, it adds more to who I am and who I think I always was or wanted to be.” -so this is what it’s meant to be, MRB “I wake up a little bit more each day. & this act, I believe, is what we refer to as blooming.” -the flowers in our souls, MRB “As a writer, as a person of the written word, when our craft becomes a battle, we are in strife with ourselves. The discord rampant in our heads make a display on our faces, and maybe creating wavelengths throughout our entire bodies. I must write in order to breathe. I write to find my peace. I write to heal, to break down, and to find myself all over again. I need to emote through this avenue as much as I need the air that goes in and out of my lungs. So when the mind jams up, my soul is confused. There will be an inevitable deluge of words in the near future. I do not fear it; I will keep attempting until the mind can find the key to unlock the gated & guarded song and dance.” -Backed up, MRB “My color faded from life, but more importantly, the magic disappeared. It all disappeared because I disappeared. I disappeared due to events & things that had happened to me, not because of me. This is what I had mixed up. I never stopped fighting, I realistically fought harder than ever before.” -Perception, MRB “When your world comes crashing down more than once in a short time we start to wonder why. When there is so much turmoil and hardship we begin to blame ourselves. How can we not?” -We Are Not Responsible for Their Self-Will, MRB |
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“That light truly never goes out. The darkness has an end & the light is somewhere. We just have to keep moving in order to reach it again.” -MRB “Here’s to the rebuild. It’s okay to break when we thought we were rock solid. It’s even okay to allow ourselves to stay broken for little while. But we need to move on and we must keep going.” -What a Quarter Century Taught Me, MRB “There's no book on life. No check-points to let you know you're on the right track or you're headed in the correct direction. So follow your heart, let your instincts guide you. And live your life, the life that you want to create for yourself, being the person you wish to be.” What my 21 year old self tells me, -MRB “But how do we go on beating when a piece of our heart is missing?” -Grief is messy, MRB “We evolve. I used to love destroying things; mostly myself. I got pure satisfaction out of watching the entirety of something shatter into tiny pieces due to my own choices. Now. Now My heart sings while watching tiny little pieces become something greater. To create, brings me joy. To build enhances my happiness. To see a goal achieved by my own greatness far surpasses any destruction I could ever even aide in.” -evolution, MRB “I feel as if I am approaching my own skin. I can see it there in front of me, zealously waiting for me to jump right into it and continue walking my journey.” -leap, MRB |
“To love me is something one may find hard to do; but others find it to be the easiest thing they've ever done.”
-To Know Me is To Love Me, MRB Our problem in striving for perfection is the misbelief that it exists. — Morgan Rae Brown "This point and forward on requires a new language I've yet to speak. It demands the me that I am now, and the me that I am still approaching. It asks of me the me I have yet to become." -MRB “We dance around good-bye & finally turn to part ways, glancing back with a grin. Would you have said something different if you knew this was the last time?” -The Last Dance, Morgan Rae Brown “Saying you’re all tangled up sounds aomewhat poetic until they see the barbed wire.” -MRB "Moments are far too fleeting to take anything too seriously." -MRB "To truly live is to thrive, not to merely survive." -Morgan Rae Brown "The people that want in your life will make it happen. Silence is just as much an answer as any other action." -MRB "Progress regardless of how you measure it- is still progress. Forward momentum is the key. Continue onward, no matter the pace." MRB "I am a story. I am a walking, talking, moving story being written every moment of every single day." -Morgan Rae Brown I've spent my life in circles desperately seeking that magic this life has to offer. I woke up one day, took a breath, and realized: it's me. -Plot Twist, MRB "How can a single person be so happy yet so sad all at the same time?" -Morgan Rae Brown "I'm learning that bravery looks different every moment that you are embracing it, down to even the second. Know that you are brave; I am, too." -MRB "To struggle with mental illness is to most often struggle with change, even if it's a good thing." "As time goes on, we either become more of who we are, or we distance ourselves from it." -mrb "While I've been trying to find my way, I almost lost it." - Overkill, Morgan Rae Brown "I Dug my own grave and eventually laid in it waiting for the dirt to be shoveled over me," -mrb |
