Words have come and gone, but I have not had a moment where enough of them have been able to flow here. At least not with the hope that has been pulsing its way through now. But at last, here we are, even though I have so much to say, it'll have to come in waves. These words finally feel like my own, like I own them and they are mine. I may not say much for now, but know that it is coming. My soul is resurfacing, re-connecting, healing.
This is not a comeback, even a continuation. This is some sort of redemption yes but it's also a whole new me. Not the "new year, new me" type of me. But honestly, excruciatingly, uncensored, discovery. I've shifted my lens recently & it's been life changing. Maybe even life saving. I've come back. I've arose from the ashes. I've walked through fire. I've drown and risen again. Somehow, some way, I've made it. I always have and always do. My track record for survival is 100%. But it's time to make my way back to living, to thriving. But this is different. This feels different. This is new. I cannot entirely explain it just yet, all I can say is climb on in and either join team MRB for the ride, or do me the kindness of walking away and rid yourself from my life because I do not need, nor do I want half-in people in my life. I am far too much of everything to get far too little in return. My standards and boundaries have once again altered, and excitement is what follows.
There is so much to look forward to, & I've always promised you honesty and transparency. So let's get ready, here we go.
All my love, mrb.